When I was a young girl, living in Idaho, at about 12 years old, I had the job of picking weeds in our families’ flowerbeds. We had a large, beautiful home at that time, that rested in the corner lot of a cul de sac. It was our families’ dream home.
When my parent’s were at work during the day, I also went to work pulling weeds from the flower beds. I didn’t know a lot about God at that time, some, but not much. I had been to church a few times, but didn’t really know who He was. While I was alone in the garden, I would spend time praying and asking Him questions. I got the growing sense that He was more than just a story, or a figure-head, but that He was real.
Fast forward twenty five years. I live in the desert of Arizona and I never garden. Ever.
But I still pray. This morning before I got out of bed, I opened up my heart in prayer to ask another version of the same request: Reveal Your Will. The relationship that began twenty-five years ago, today, has blossomed into a deep, and loving friendship. Here are some of the things that I have learned along that personal quest.
1. God is love. He is total, absolute and complete Love. It is not possible to lose His love for me, care for me, and 100% investment in me. He IS me, everywhere, in, around and throughout. The same substance that makes up His being, LIGHT, lives in my cells and my soul. This reality I can never be separated from. If I feel separation, I am confused. When I am clear, I KNOW this.
2. People don’t know anything. They cannot know the past, except through a skewed lens of personal perception and they have no idea of the future. The PRESENT MOMENT is a portal that allows us to step out of the clouded contents of the mind and into experience and vision. The mind of man is nothing. The “don’t know” mind is powerful point of access because when you release your addiction to facts and data–what you think you know–and OPEN your HEART to seek TRUTH, you have PERSONAL EXPERIENCE with Deity. KNOWING comes from personal EXPERIENCE.
3. The DIVINE WILL is all that matters. I have ONE PLAN, and only ONE GOAL. Follow the will of God. This is also MY WILL. My greatest desires are fulfilled in God’s will for me. This is an act of total agency and personal choice. The Divine Guidance system that operates IN ME and in the UNIVERSE, leads always to My Highest Good. It can lead ONLY to my Highest Good–because the Love of the Creator is so absolute it couldn’t lead me anywhere else. Following DIVINE WILL is the only worthwhile objective, because in it–every good thing I want for myself is fulfilled.
4. Jesus Christ is a real being, that LIVES today in full heart, life and measure. I have heard His voice and experienced His presence. An experience with HIM is to feel TOTAL and ABSOLUTE COMPLETION. There is no separation between us and it is as though He is in My cells and I am in His heart and we have never been apart from each other. His VOICE is FIRE. It is calm with a piercing resonance that speaks through the center of the Soul and lights it ablaze with one whisper. I would gladly exchange all that I have to spend even a few more seconds close to Him. He is the ULTIMATE EXPERIENCE. The total affection of my heart, mind and will rests solely upon Him. All that I desire to achieve in this world is to live inside that LOVE and FIRE. There is nothing that could compare in the slightest measure the one second of being in His presence. It…is…ALL.